| | Isn't it odd how we miss the things we dread? I miss budget
meetings and laying out pages and editing photos. It made me sick
at the end of the school year to think of those things, but now I miss
them. I don't miss fighting with the staff and feeling poorly
about myself. I miss using the cameras. I will never miss
taking a group photo [ever, not in my life], but I miss spontaneous
composition through a lens.
I miss studying! One never thinks they will say that, but I miss
learning and finding new bits of knowledge to share with my roommate (I
think that annoyed her sometimes). I miss cramming for the next
Lifespan quiz - studying 40 notecards with simple definitions in an
organized fashion every night. I miss lectures with Dr. Lund and
his simple sarcasm that was strangely refreshing at 8:00 AM every
Tuesday and Thursday.
I miss reading something intelligent. I know I craved those trash
magazines at the end of the school year, just to know I was not a robot
- but now I'm sick of them. I miss late-night talks knowing that
you are giving up a good night's sleep for the intimacy of the
conversation.
I miss the Upland foliage and the ever-changing weather [Illinois is just as bad, if not worse].
I miss 40 emails a day and knowing that you are needed somewhere [I
don't miss forgetting to respond to said emails]. I miss a
regular lifestyle the most - one punctuated by meetings and classes and
study sessions - and knowing exactly how my day would go at the
beginning of each morning.
On that note... I am so happy to be home. Despite missing all of
these small aspects of my life, I love sleeping in each day. I
love waking up to sunlight, not streetlights. I love eating
breakfast every morning while enjoying either the news or a syndicated
TV show. I love being outside when I want and soaking in warm
rays of summer sun.
I love summertime email that catches you up on the lives of friends you
used to live with. I love having clean clothes every day and not
a massive pile of dirtiness in my closet. I love having alone
time to think and relax.
I love seeing my family and friends from home, as different as things
have become over the past few years. I love lunch dates and
sharing - making up for lost time over Starbuck's Coffee. I love
planning vacations and exciting activities without the worry of "when
will I get this project done."
I love the slow pace of summer with the thought that in a few short
months life will return to the fast-paced-busyness that I sometimes
crave. I love reading the New York Times every morning without
paying for it. I love having a caffeine-free diet because I
honestly don't need the boost.
This connundrum that I face with each end of the school year is strange
and yet I love the most that I can lead two completely different
lifestyles and think fondly of both. |
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